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hello...hello...

2010-01-05T07:31:39Z

it'sbeen like, what? ten years since i last updated?

well, maybe that's too exagerated, but who's not.
in these times, i also find people being so much so plastic that when they die, they're non-biodegradable!
but who's telling the truth these days, what's the point.
so if i were plastic before u bitch, just suck it up and join me in.
that way we can live happily, never, ever.

so school's been a bitch currently, with the dumbfuck fyp and the many other projects that we have to handle with just two hands and two balls.
oh, one thing i look forward to school is actually the coming FYP.
as much as i hate it, i kinda like it.
it also means that i'm in my final year of polytechic and that i'm old and gonna die like, soon or something.
oh, speaking of which,
my birthday's coming.
its exactly 13 days from the time i'm typing this entry.

BTW, HERE'S SOME UPDATE.

nasjams @ 2009-09-21T23:55:00

2009-09-21T16:35:40Z

nasjams @ 2009-08-11T21:40:00

2009-08-11T13:51:59Z

my life is fun.
seriously. like fun.

the long weekend was much needed.
PP is halfway done!
yeay!
now i can continue my pp in peace knowing that my advisor is very happy with my progression.
so now, peaceful pp continuation,
peaceful working,
and peaceful sleeping.

during the last weekend, i managed to sleep well, despite thinking about the endless pp.
and i was able to contemplate about my life, like the pp wasnt enough to keep me thinking.
decided to not insist on getting things that i know its impossible to get with a blink of the eye.
but it's the joy of fantasizing that keeps me thinking.

however,
i want to go to rome.
paris, milan, london!
maldives, south africa, australia!
amsterdam, new york, canada!
puerto rice, hawaii, pittsburgh!
i want to go to sleep.

BIGGEST CRAP, SEX SCENES!

2009-08-07T16:52:30Z

today, made me realised,
i'm probably just very self-centered!

days ago, J, returned back to my life.
brought me invinsible flowers and gave me unfelt hugs and kisses.
drove me around the imaginable country in his omitted wagon.
illusionarily wine-dine me sumptious carbs.
and apocraphaly lulled me to sleep.
my life was ineffable (maybe i thot it was),
until finally it struck me,
really?

days ago (also), H, reappeared back to my life.
didn't bring me invinsible flowers nor gave me unfelt hugs and kisses.
drove me around the country in his pimped-up black ride.
unillusionarily wine-dined me sumptious carbs.
and (also) apocraphaly lulled me to sleep.
my life was ineffable (so i didn't know)
until it finally struck me,
really?

J and H,
both unillusionary people,
that obviously shoot out in my life.
however similar or different they may be,
it is me that they centred to.

a former bestfriend (now former enemy) told me that my life is not evolving around myself only.
no matter how fucked up things are, i gotta admit, that life is still going on, time never stops.

i tried with all my heart to halt that finger from pointing to the clockwise direction.
it did not stop, unfortunately unquestionably.
however here's the thing,
if you can't beat it, join it.

thinking about J and H,
the episode of story in my life,
puts the life on hold.
school turned shitty, work turned soury.
life was so pushy, words oh so mushy.
nonsensical thoughts streamed into mind,
vulgarities were prayed, every second of the day.

i decided, let's go time, play this game of life, life,
who's got to rush the life!
fuck you!

nasjams @ 2009-08-07T16:03:00

2009-08-07T08:03:19Z

" let's have some fun this beat it sick,
i wanna take a ride on your disco stick!
hey!!"

it's been like, OH-so-draggy day, week.
the start of august is so no needed...
everything seems so dooooomed!

nasjams @ 2009-08-03T22:31:00

2009-08-03T14:32:10Z

did i mentioned?
my life was fucked up whole of july
and that i said fuck my life??

i think i did.
but yes, just when i thought, the fuck up period was over,
another fuck up period is coming near.

july,
boy isn't it a long and happening month.
started off well with the excitements
ended off with a shitty!
ih what a july it has been,
such a month should never come again,

damn.

by the way,
my laptop's crashed!
loaning the school laptop now,

fuck my life.

nasjams @ 2009-07-30T23:32:00

2009-07-30T15:32:59Z

j, you make me laugh
h, you make me barf
mum, you make me feel dumb
july, you make me jump.

fuck my life.

really.

nasjams @ 2009-06-21T00:57:00

2009-06-20T17:07:20Z

life's like a total mess sometimes.
everything goes with what is planned but does not go as planned!
there're hiccups here and there,
redifining here and there needed.
but i didn know that there would come the time where i'd be making my own decisions,
my own choices,
my own planning.
suddenly its all a "here you go! nah!" kind of thing.
maybe responsibilites came to early?
or am i just not ready.

well probably i'm not ready to bear responsibilites all by myself yet.
but somehow, i think i already did, unconciously.

things are really happening all of a sudden these days,
and what am i supposed to do? i'm sorry if i didn't know it all.
you can't blame a boy for fucking up for a while.
but if it's all the while,
by all means then.

nasjams @ 2009-06-18T10:11:00

2009-06-18T02:12:01Z

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!!
old already.
it was all sundanese this birthday for mummy.

the food was good.
ayam panggang sunda,
cumi cumi bakar,
ikan seabass bakar,
satay ayam,
lime juice,
family,
great dinner.

i just can't wait for the weekends to begin!! i just have to go to fort asap! and brrrraaaaawwwwwwwww sleepy!

nasjams @ 2009-06-17T00:48:00

2009-06-16T17:01:10Z

finally the construction is done.
still, some of the parts is a lil bit funny.
but this'll do for now.

life's been busy,
but fun somehow.
work, school, home.
altho the times of leisure seemed to not exist,
but i'm sure it will soon for sure.
i wanna go shopping,
movie,
cake dining,
seoul garden,
shopping,
slacking,
starbucks-ing,
shopping,
sleeping,
shopping
and not forgetting,
shopping.
it's the GSS, but i'm yet to do the shopping.
maybe i should wait til the next pay, for now save up first then shop till drop!
good idea!!

work's been really great!
finally it's the school holidays
and i get to see all those peepoes!
and did i mention i've passed my guided tour?
"good afternoon everybody, welcome to fort siloso,
my name is Nas, and i'm gonna be your tour guide today."
yeay!
well, it took me 2 months to passed it,
with 4 times assessment.
a lot of peopoes to thank.

to all the people of fort, who's always been supporting me,
motivating me, giving the best they can for me.
thank you for believing in me, cherishing my presence and loving me oh-so-funny!
thank you for always giving me the reminder that there are people out there,
who realise my presence.

and i'm not quitting. this whole thing, is just for fun.
hahahahhahah!
:D

bye!

nasjams @ 2009-06-16T14:19:00

2009-06-16T06:21:07Z

blogs and websites can post mix media. a post could contain text, audio, photos, videos. not so on newspapers and books.

nasjams @ 2009-06-16T12:47:00

2009-06-16T04:50:37Z

LJ under construction,
sorry for the destruction.

nasjams @ 2009-06-02T21:06:00

2009-06-02T13:44:01Z

just when i thought i am free enough,
my friend justtttttttt had to remind me something.
"eh, i just handed up the assignment 2 sia. late sia!"
and i as like, WTF!!
i haven even do and you say you late already, which means im dead??
fuck!!
but i decided, fuck it.

and suddenly school sucks.
i can't seem to find the time to do things accordingly.
and i am so fucked in managing m time.
fuck la...!

it's time for a proper update.

2009-05-28T16:14:50Z

proper update, wait long long!
i've got no time for such things right now!
bye!

i miss fort siloso.

2009-05-28T07:38:49Z

i miss fort siloso!
like alot.
and im suppose to do my guided tour assessment on 4th june.

but i cannot make it!

nasjams @ 2009-05-26T17:53:00

2009-05-26T10:19:41Z

it's happening again.
i thot that life is going to be easier for the two weeks holiday in June,
but it's happening again.

2nd June: Mint museum & work!
4th June: work and AYG workshop
6th June: work and AYG workshop
i am fucking busy.

tired.

nasjams @ 2009-05-25T10:15:00

2009-05-25T07:23:00Z

~~fuck off!~~

clumsy cause i'm falling in love!

2009-05-21T16:17:28Z

i dunno what the title got to do with today's post.
prolly the one that i updated earlier in the day.
so anyways, life is fucking tiring.

well, first of all,
i'm going to be very happy because i am going to build up my portfolio in writing.
well congratulate this bitch for being able to clinch the deal to be an on-site co-journalist for the Asian Youth Games 2009, swimming category.

this will help me with my portfolio building as a writer.
and also,expose me to all those men in speedos!

next,

Zi just emailed me to say that i'll be taking this tour group on 6th June.
i really really am very happy cuz i really really want to do the tour!
which means, i have to pass my GTA by end of may at least.
please please god, make me less nervous to whoever my assessor is.
look god, im praying to you now ok. you ought to be shocked!
so please grant me this pray. for once.
thank you.

today

and yeay! KRIS ALLEN won.
altho, i kinda like ADAM LAMBERT too.
especially his hair.
so, yeay!
and the song's great btw.

nasjams @ 2009-05-21T18:03:00

2009-05-21T10:08:39Z

aaron swore today
firdaus is a fucking bitch
krista is pathetic
carissa is dumb blonde
aini is a man
juizyan is juicy
aimee is a gangster
ally is ________
zalyla is blur
natasha is bracey
and nasri is,

so sexy!

virgin.

2009-05-19T14:42:10Z

yes, i'm a virgin at this. help me can?
don't laugh ah!